I seem to suffer from eternal guilt. By that I mean whatever I am doing I feel guilty that I'm not doing something else! 

~ When I'm working and the kids are around I feel guilty that I'm not spending time with them. 
~ When I'm working and the kids are at school I feel guilty that I've not finishing all the jobs that need doing around the house.
~ When I am spending time with the kids I feel guilty that I am not working and feel like I am letting down all the people who have helped me build my business up to where it is today. 
~ I feel guilty that I don't spend enough time with my husband and I even feel guilty for not spending enough time on my self!

I want to be an amazing role model for my children as I know they look up to me so I then feel guilty that I might be somehow teaching them that it's okay to run around after everyone else all the time with a big weight of guilt on your shoulders. This is NOT what I want them growing up believing is acceptable.

So, when my husband decided to suffer with a horrendous chest infection last month I knew I wouldn't catch it as I never get ill (I don't have time!!) 
But I did.
And that turned out to be a blessing in disguise.

For almost a whole month I was literally forced to slow down. The kids were both poorly too though recovered much quicker than I did. I had been going full throttle for so long that I had just burnt myself out and the chest infection had really knocked me for six.

In my month of forced recovery I made some pretty significant changes... First off I rediscovered my love of reading. Reading is such a pleasure to me but is one of those things that I can never justify spending time doing (for all the reasons mentioned above!) I bought and borrowed a number of FANTASTIC books that have really opened my eyes and have changed my outlook on life in general.

Photo Credit: Rosemarie Mansfield

One of the books I read (which was highly recommended by a friend) is called The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying by Marie Kondo. Now 'magic' and 'tidying' are not really two words I'd have ever previously put together... more 'tidying' and 'chore' but this book really changed my views.
Marie Kondo is a Japanese lady who has dedicated her life to tidying(!) and has some interesting suggestions on how to tackle clutter so it will never be an issue ever again. EVEN WITH KIDS.

Some of what she says I don't really agree with so I've not gone with all her suggestions but the vast majority of it I think is amazing. She does say some things that at first glance seem fairly bonkers (saying 'thank you' to your possessions for example) but never the less the principle is sound and the bottom line of what she is saying is that you should only have items in your home that bring you joy. If it doesn't bring you joy then get rid!
Since reading this book I have made countless trips to the dump and the charity shop. Turns out I owned a lot of things that didn't bring me joy!!

Another big change for me is I've decided to knock alcohol on the head. I'm not saying I will never drink again but for the first time in my adult life I no longer crave a glass of wine at the end of a long day and I feel certain I'll never actually be drunk again.
When I was poorly drinking alcohol was the very last thing on my mind so I went the first few weeks with no effort at all; then when I started to feel better I realised that I hadn't really missed it. Plus I had saved so much money, I was sleeping better and I didn't seem to be suffering with headaches anywhere near as much. 

Drinking more of this kind of thing these days!
Photo Credit: Rosemarie Mansfield

My last big change is to stop with the feeling guilty. Just stop.
I realised that feeling guilty all the time serves no-one, least of all me! The house is more clear and organised than it's ever been, I sleep better at night because of the not drinking and I feel I have a clearer head now to move forward with the important stuff!

I bought a beautiful glass 'House Rules' sign the other day which I thought was just lovely. I painted the frame red to match the other things in the room and hung it up.

My daughter read it all out to me and said she would obey them all! I said the 'Follow your Dream' rule was especially important and she said "Of course, that's an easy one to obey. Why would you not follow your dream?!"
That's a good question.
For a not-quite-seven-year-old, my daughter does say some very insightful and wise words sometimes!

Photo Credit: Rosemarie Mansfield

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